There I was looking at something on the internet, I don't even recall now but that's probably irrelevant. Suddenly I had this feeling come over me that I was to adopt my first child. I don't know how to explain it better than that. So, I started looking up the state's foster program to see children who needed a home. As I started looking at their faces I felt a pull that I was looking in the wrong direction. It was then I knew that my future child was in China, and I needed to focus my research there.
Wouldn't you know it, not even two weeks prior, China had just reopened their adoptions to single women. Apparently a few years back they had closed adoptions to single women (though there are still those waiting for their child from 2007 and prior.) They have so many orphans with special needs that they would like to see have their own families that they decided to reopen to single women. At least I know upfront that my future child will have some sort of special need, as I will only be able to adopt a "Special Focus" child.
Though I can't remember specifically what I was doing at the moment I heard God's calling to adopt, I do remember what was going on when I first really thought about becoming a Choice Mom (a single woman who becomes a mom by choice). It was two years ago, April 22, 2010 to be exact, and I was at work talking to my friend. The conversation had been revolving around me wanting to be a mommy (which she's heard a lot over the years ;) ) Then we got to discussing what would happen if my (future) husband and I could not have children, would I consider adoption. I replied in the affirmative. Then she asked me if I would consider adopting even if I didn't marry. Huh?! As soon as I got home that night I began searching on the internet about becoming a single mom by choice. There is plenty of resources and support out there that I didn't know existed because I had never seriously considered it. But seeing as my original plan didn't work out, you know marry my soul mate at a young age, have my five children by the time I was 30, and get to raise them all as a stay-at-home mom, I was ready to create a new plan. By no means have I given up on finding my future husband, but then who knows what God's plan is for that (and really it's His plans that seem to work out for me ;) ). I'm not sure though if we don't meet until I'm 50 that I'll be ready to be just starting a family at that time. So, I spent plenty of time of praying and asking God if this was the path to mommyhood I was meant to follow. As I felt peace in my heart I started scouring the internet, reading books, and following blogs to see just how these single ladies were becoming Choice Moms. Although my initial delve into the subject was based off of a conversation about adoption, I was really looking into IUIs and having a biological child.
So when He called me to adoption I feel like I'm back on the path he has for me to follow. After this revelation I have had so many dreams, that when I wake up in the morning I just have this wonderful feeling about adoption. Right now I have this wonderful vision in my head of my two future children (yeah, I'm not too sure I could handle five on my own right now ;) ) One is a little girl with jet black hair while the younger one, holding her hand, has red hair. Though I wouldn't be surprised if they both turn out to be boys ;)
What I do plan on doing is blogging about this journey that I find myself on to adoption. I will try to add in some helpful websites, others' blogs, and information I find along the way for not only myself but others who may be interested. I plan on adding more information in the near future and keeping family and friends (and anyone else, I guess) in the loop of where I'm at. Right now I'm gathering information and working on finances so that I can prove I can afford to take care of child in daily life :) Thanks for joining me!