Thursday, August 29

Layover to Mommyville

I've entered the cycle that I was planning on being IUI #2.  I'm not keeping you out of the loop, in that way.  I'm currently not doing any treatments and after a LOT of consideration I've decided to put these plans on hold.  Yep, it's really hard to do :(

Ugh, I didn't want to really type this up either ;)  but while being a little blue that it didn't happen the first time out of the gates, there was also the real possibility that there could have been a multiples pregnancy as well.  I found myself wishing that I had stayed that same frugal gal I was all the way up through college.  Then I wouldn't be freaking out about how I would afford more than one baby.  I also thought about how 40 year old me would think about right now.  Would she be saying, "If only I had paid down my debts, I'd be so much better off now."  So honestly that's what I've decided to do.  Get my consumer debts paid off.  This will be a long dry spell, but I think best for my future sanity as well as finances. 

No, I'm not waiting to have a set amount of money, I know that there's no perfect time or monies to have a baby--otherwise the population probably would have died out by now.  I do feel that it is best decision for me right now (and my future kiddo(s) ).  Sorry to have kept you out of the loop, but I really needed to make sure that this is what I needed to do.  I also know I look at this blog as if it was not my own and think "Come on woman, just do something--make up your mind!!!"  Sorry!!!  

So for now it's just another layover on my way to Mommyville, but gosh darn it I will get there sometime ;)

Thursday, August 8

Kings and Queens




"Kings and Queens"
-Audio Adrenaline

Little hands, shoeless feet, lonely eyes looking back at me
Will we leave behind the innocent too brief
On their own, on the run when their lives have only begun
These could be our daughters and our sons
And just like a drum I can hear their hearts beating
I know my God won’t let them be defeated
Every child has a dream to belong and be loved

[Chorus:]
Boys become kings, girls will be queens
Wrapped in Your majesty
When we love, when we love the least of these
Then they will be brave and free
Shout your name in victory
When we love when we love the least of these
When we love the least of these

Break our hearts once again
Help us to remember when
We were only children hoping for a friend
Won’t you look around these are the lives that the world has forgotten
Waiting for doors of our hearts and our homes to open

[Chorus]

If not us who will be like Jesus
To the least of these
If not us tell me who will be like Jesus
Like Jesus to the least of these

Boys become kings, girls will be queens
Wrapped in your majesty
When we love, when we love the least of these
Then they will be brave and free shout your name in victory
We will love we will love the least of these
We will love the least of these
We will love the least of these
We will love the least of these
We will love the least of these
We will love the least of these